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// Thursday, January 9, 2014

Thursday, January 09, 2014

You know what sucks? When the person you loves the most, like anyone else? It feels so sad i don't know why. I'm tired of being sad everyday, but i can't help it. It is not easy to let someone you love, go to another person, it hurts. I admit that i have once cheated on him, but hey it was not easy to love someone at first. Do you know the phrase You never realize how much you like someone until you watch them like someone.

It happens to me right now. It was hard at first. But i let him goes to that person (whose actually my friend) It hurts after knowing that he likes her. I can't accept the fact. But i fake my smile, and tell him "Just go to her. I don't mind at all. At least you will be happy with her" I just let him. I don't know what is wrong with me. I just want him all alone. I don't want to share him with anybody else. I take a deep breath and hold up my tears from flowing down when i saw them. My boyfriend walks with her. My boyfriend sits next to her. My boyfriend smiles when he saw her face. I let my tears out when i am alone. I can't take it anymore. But it's for his happiness. If i don't let him go to her, then my boyfriend will think about her all the time. My boyfriend will think about her all the time. AND MY BOYFRIEND WILL THINK ABOUT HER ALL THE TIME. So i just let him be with someone he loves because he always smile when he talks with her, every time. I want to suicide. Bye.

MY LIFE IS A DISASTER! NOBODY CARES ABOUT ME. THE THING IS WHY THEY LEAVED ME WITHOUT ANY REASON? WHY?! WHAT I DID WRONG? I AM TIRED WITH ALL OF THESE. BEING LIED! BEING CHEATED! BEING BACKSTABBED! I FEEL WANT TO DIE. PLEASE STOP HURTING MY FEELINGS! I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE. I HAVE DIED INSIDE. DO YOU WANT ME DIED ON THE OUTSIDE?! // Thursday, May 23, 2013

Thursday, May 23, 2013